The importance of the background: a lesson from Rebel Wilson & Anna Kendrick

"In my home the most important light is not the large chandelier seen by all , its the night light no one sees but lights my way and prevents me from stubbing my toe" - Rick Warren

I love music. I love listening to it especially when I'm driving, and if I'm alone I'm definitely belting along with the tune.
In the last month I have been on the road a lot and a lot of "mash ups" and acapella stuff seems to have been in my ears. I enjoy singing along with tunes from Glee and Pitch Perfect because, for some reason they make everyone in the car feel like they can carry a tune.
This week as I was listening to a mash up sound track I noticed something. I noticed that those songs take a LOT of different talented people to get the popular catchy effect that draws us to all download them and watch the movies. However, without fail, every time I'm in the car alone, with friends or with the kids…every one of us takes over and sings the lyrics of the lead. What happens then is the effects of the song that make it so unique and effective are basically rendered ineffective. Listen...

 

What makes that song so beautiful and unique is the harmonies being sung to support the lead. Yet without even recognizing it, we each took over with the lead when she came in. All of us were in the car singing the lead and the beautiful melodies and harmonies in the back were ignored.

Don't we all do this? We fail to recognize that what makes Gods plans so beautiful is that each of his children plays a different role.
We each are designed to either lead in a particular area or support those that are leading. The support role is NOT a lesser role. The support role is crucial for the beauty of the plan to come to fruition. What if the girls singing the harmonies in the back quit when the lead took over? They didn't. They stayed on track and kept THEIR role moving.

Are you the wife or mom that feels like her role as supporting her husband and children is somewhat smaller? Are you the assistant that feels their absence in the project wouldn't be missed? Are you the college student looking to make a name for yourself in life? The associate pastor who is always behind the scenes? Stop and recognize that each role in Gods kingdom is crucial and needed.
Play the song again and try to only sing the backup melody all the way through. Beautiful right?


"All of you together are Christ's body and each of you is a separate and necessary part of it"
1 Corinthians 12:27

Love never fails ; a powerful reminder in an open letter from a lesbian to a pastors wife.

A few years after coming out; a practicing homosexual pens this letter to a friend who, along with her husband leads an evangelical Bible teaching church in the South. They remain close friends.

You really are THE ONLY person who has treated me as though Christ would treat me...through everything. 
Everyone else talked about me, judged me and turned their backs on me. I don't feel that way about you. 
Even though I know you don't agree with me or understand me, you never turned your back on me. 
I can never thank you enough for that. I am so lucky to know you and so lucky to have a friend like you. 
I would not truly know or understand Christianity without you and your example. You have no idea the impact you've had on my life. 
Again I'll say, I can never thank you enough. Thank you again for your words. Thank you for being such an amazing example. 
Because of you, I know what grace looks like.
Because of how you live your life and how you love other people, I know how Jesus did, too. 
I can't say that about any of the other Christians I know. 


"What if thoughtful folks in the gay and evangelical communities stopped shouting across the playground and sat down together? Glad I serve a God who loves evangelicals..and his gay neighbor equally and desires a relationship with them both. Hopefully we will desire the same" Joshua DuBois

The advice I wish I had received 15 years ago

"It is a foolish woman who expects her husband to be to her that which only Jesus Christ Himself can be: always ready to forgive, totally understanding, unending patient, invariably tender and loving, unfailing in every area, anticipating every need, and making more than adequate provision. Such expectations put a man under an impossible strain”   Ruth Bell Graham


I have attended more than my usual share of weddings in the last few weeks as well as preparing to mark my husband and I's 15 year anniversary. Marriage has been on my mind. What it is and what it isn't.

Leading a church with a large population of 20 somethings: relationships, engagement and marriage is a hot topic and so often in my mind, misguided. 

I'm not about to write about how I have all the answers. Far from it. I can say however what I wish I was told before I was married. The one piece of advice that maybe none of us anticipating the exciting road of marriage and planning a wedding would have even listened to.

I was told marriage would be fun. MAN is it. I was told marriage would be hard. MAN is it. (harder to be in one with me than for me to be in one with my husband but I digress.) 
I was told marriage would be scary and refining and amazing. It is all of those things. 

The one piece of advice I wish I had been given would not have changed my mind on the decision I was making, but may have allowed me to enter the relationship with a whole different set of standards. What is this advice? The advice I will scream from the mountaintops to every couple about to embark on this journey and that I myself am still learning everyday.

That Christ will and can be all to you that your spouse can't and won't. I think we all know this in some degree but how we live it out is backwards. 

Often we look to our spouse to meet our needs. We expect our partner to make us feel loved, to give us an identity, to give us joy and comfort and patience. What we fail to receive from our spouse we look to our children or job and eventually to Christ for. 
Marriage will never be what it was intended if we continue to follow this upside down and backward formula. 

No one shows off their engagement ring to friends followed by "I know He will fail me at times but I'm not looking to him to complete me", or "I asked her to marry me because I couldn't think of anyone better suited for me to humbly serve expecting nothing for myself for the rest of my life". We don't say these things partly because they aren't exciting to say out loud and partly because we don't believe it. 

**A brief side note to the unmarried. Young couples, when you dream about your future marriage what is in those mental pictures? Do they consist of serving or being served? Do they consist of this individual making your voyage through life better or an opportunity for you to look beyond yourself? 

Choose the mate that points you to HIM. (but this is another post all together)**

I want to challenge us to mix up the formula we have been following. I want us to stop looking to our spouse first but look to the only one who won't fail us. Once we do we will have everything we need in HIM. Having our completeness found in the safest place. Freeing us up to fail one another because CHRIST won. Freeing us up to hurt each other because Christ has a perfect love. Freeing us up to LOVE each other without fear because the Love we depend on is without fault. Its a much shorter and more fulfilling formula.  He is the FIRST step in our equation of finding what we need . Paul Tripp describes it well when he says “If I am seeking to get identity from you,I will watch you too closely, listen to you too intently, and need you to fundamentally."
 Lets watch Jesus closer, Listen to Jesus more intently and need HIM fundamentally. It's then and only then we are free to love and serve and journey through life without expectation.

That my friends is the beauty in marriage that Christ designed. 

The legacy of humility

"We may convince ourselves we're about God's work, so we do everything we can to build that empire, forgetting the servant nature of Jesus."  - Mary DeMuth

      I spent a special weekend in November celebrating the 95th birthday of my grandfather. The party included an impressive guest list of over 900 people and included in that list were many well known names. Upon planning the party however my sweet grandfather would repeatedly proclaim "no one is going to have any interest in coming to my birthday". And he means it. 

    My grandfather has been the advisor to many presidents, He has repeatedly been on Gallup's list of most admired men and women. He has appeared on the list 55 times. He has graced the cover of Time and played host to world leaders and even pop culture icons. He has been given the congressional medal of honor and even been knighted.  To the rest of the world - he's a big deal. To him- He is a 95 year old man who loves Jesus. 

      My grandfather isn't interested in his twitter followers. His value is not based on who knows his name and how many books he sells. This used to be a problem we saw in the world but the phenomenon has leaked into the christian world. The problem of the christian celebrity.

      Ironically  while Jesus walked the earth, He had plenty of opportunities to become known, "to leverage His influence for the kingdom"* And yet, He didn't. He repeatedly told the people to keep his miracles quiet. Jesus gave us no indication that He would tweet about feeding the five thousand. In fact following that miracle he retreated to be by himself.

    I have watched, arguably this decades most influential evangelist stop to thank the bus boy for cleaning his table. I have watched him return the rented Lincoln town car for a less expensive Taurus. I have seen his 95 year old eyes light up when I shared that an unknown single mother gave her life to Christ and with all his strength loudly proclaim "PRAISE THE LORD". 

   Jesus teaches that the poor in spirit, the meek and the humble will be blessed. I am just suggesting that as a christian culture we have lost sight of the basics. We have excused "influencing the kingdom" to promote what we are doing. 

  I suggest we value fame—we call it “influence”—too much. I suggest we value size and scale too much. *

Where did we miss it? When did it become acceptable to promote ourselves and others while "claiming" we are promoting the kingdom. Whose kingdom is it we are promoting? 

  Personally I have been given a legacy of humility. A tangible, hand holding example of what it looks like to humbly serve the Lord in my grandfather. But we all have that example and legacy in Jesus Christ. I want to get back to admiring Jesus over those doing His work. And stop defining His work in scales and numbers and status' and feeds. I want to get back to becoming and admiring the 

" least of these".

Thank you daddy bill for being my "Jesus with skin on."

 "Not to us, O LORD, not to us, but to your name give glory." Psalm 115:1

 * G Pakiem

Can I stay with you?

         

"The juice goes out of Christianity when it becomes too based on faith rather than on living like Jesus or seeing and loving the world the way Jesus did. " (1)

        Someone close to my heart has struggled with addiction most of their life. Recently they were released from their second stint in an intense rehab facility and found themselves standing at the train station with a bag full of clothes and nowhere to go. Many of their bridges had been burned as during the last days before rehab they had resorted to stealing from loved ones to support themselves. A family member of the individual called and asked if they could come stay here in our home. My first reaction? Annoyed. US?  why are you asking Me? My second reaction? We are so busy, you know ministering to people. My husband is a pastor and giving our lives away is BUSY WORK. Third reaction? shame. If the day ever comes where my family and I are too busy teaching the gospel to live it...something has to give.

     The Pastor in Les Miserables instantly came to mind when my daughter said "what if they steal from us" and my response was "then we will give them more."  The loved one said they cried when told that yes, we would welcome them  into our home.

  Reading through the gospels I see a Jesus who loved people. Jesus didn't just love the lovely.

  Every person  Jesus invited to follow Him was a sinner. Every person Jesus reached out to was a sinner and MOST shunned by the "religious" leaders of the day.

The Gospel is full of accounts. Why? Because its WHO JESUS WAS. 

  He asked Matthew a tax collector to follow Him. He loved the adulterous woman and saw her for the beauty that she was. In the crux of His own suffering He welcomed the criminal alongside him on the cross to his kingdom.

"Christians are viewed by most the world as judgmental homophobic moralists who think we are the only ones going to heaven and we secretly relish the fact that everyone else is going to hell." (2)

  Where did we miss it. If we have read the gospels where did we see a Jesus that flocked to the easy to love that welcomed only the upstanding citizens and why are we so hated by our culture. People were drawn to Jesus by his love. 

  "Jesus NEVER called his followers Christians He called them disciples which is a scarier word because it actually means something.A disciple is a pupil follower. A disciple learns and grows by obeying and IMITATING his master. And Jesus made it very clear how he wanted his followers to behave" :

(3)

John 13:35 by this everyone will know you are my disciples, if you love one another. 

Pretty simple. 

Are there times its NOT as simple? Yes. Sometimes "love" is hard to define especially when dealing with a proclaiming believer as opposed to the world. However I can promise you this:  If we can learn to focus more on changing ourselves to become more like HIM and less on changing others to look more like Him the rest will fall into place. If we become more aware of OUR need for his saving grace than we are focusing on OTHERS inadequacies, Christ followers may start to have a better reputation. Resulting in JESUS having a better reputation and our own hearts looking more like His.

The new houseguest is doing well, has  moved into a new place with some other Christ followers and working a job for a man who understood the beauty of grace and second chances. So proud of the work they have allowed God to do in their life. 

Are they ever going to fall? Are they ever going to mess up? Yep. 

And so will I. 

So grateful Jesus loves the sinner.

1. Steve Jobs

2. Andy Stanley

3. Andy Stanley

I now consider the phrase I don’t know a form of extreme respect for the truth. "my" two cents on Zimmerman.

You will very rarely hear or see me use this platform to take a political or mainstream Pop culture stand. However I have been inundated with thought an opinions through the media about The Zimmerman case. Each time I thought through it I thought. "Lord help us to know how to respond as your children." And then tried to keep my mouth shut because at the end of the day. I wasnt sure HOW or WHAT I felt. I just didnt know.
I was unsure how to process or even communicate how I was feeling about society, about race about gun control and about the media. Then I read an article and I felt like WOW he said it better than I ever COULD.
So in a rare blog for me Im going to take the words directly from an article I read on the topic.
Thank you Don Miller, there is a reason you have best sellers and I do not. (yet)
JUSTICE WILL ALWAYS BE SERVED, just not always this side of heaven.

I’ve become more and more comfortable with this phrase: I don’t know.

I no longer consider this phrase a cop out, either. In fact, I now consider the phrase I don’t know a form of extreme respect for the truth. What’s wrong with admitting we can’t know something we actually can’t know? And why in the world are so many people expressing absolutely certain ideas about what happened between Zimmerman and Martin when they can’t possibly know the truth anyway? 

The problem with the phrase I don’t know is it doesn’t sell. Why not just admit it rather than make confident claims we can’t possibly back up with reasoned arguments. Why not live within the ambiguity God has left us in?

Who is more weak in your opinion, a person who makes things up and sells a false narrative with confidence, or somebody who humbly admits we don’t have all the facts and yet we must go on trusting God all the same? Be careful with that question. Are we choosing false security over the truth, the truth being we can’t possibly know everything? I think many Christians today believe many things they simply can’t prove because those beliefs bring them a sense of control, security and comfort. What if God hasn’t given us all the information, and what if justice and order in the world doesn’t depend on us knowing everything anyway? What if truth lives outside of us whether we understand it or not? What if we are given just enough information to trust God and know Him but not fully understand Him or, for that matter, life itself? What if we are given some information but not all?

Should we still seek truth? Yes. Should we use what we know to seek justice? Yes. Should we make things up when we don’t have all the facts to give people a sense of comfort and security? No. Does this mean we have to live without resolution sometimes? Yes, unfortunately it does. What should we do about that?

I don’t know.

I suppose we do what we can and trust God with the rest. But in respect for truth, I’d offer we shouldn’t backfill gaps with fictional narratives, no matter how comfortable it may make us feel.

What happened between George Zimmerman and Trayvon Martin?  I don’t know.

Was justice done? It certainly doesn’t feel like it.

Will justice be done? Yes.

This much we know is true. Justice will be done. And not by us.

(storlineblog.com)

Shopping Spree

      How often does Satan convince me midst my annoyance and frustration that I am justified to feel that way.


          Amongst most my friends I have a reputation of being a bargain hunter. I think this comes more out of my love for shopping than my desire to pinch a penny. However some of my friends have translated bargain shopper into personal shopper (fine by me) and then others have MISTAKENLY translated it to mean I'm very wise with my money.

    So I wasn't totally surprised when a dear friend at her wits end says to me , "here take my credit cards and only give them to me in the case of an emergency".
   I knew right away this wasn't a great idea.

"Are you sure?" I asked. She was sure.
I stuck the cards in my ipad case (that I got for a great deal), told her I would do right by her and saved the day.
   
       Fast forward to the next day...yes. the. next. day.

     As per a normal morning I woke up and dropped my kids off at school. I noticed I was low on gas but had enough to get them to school on time and planned to fill up at the station by the school after drop off.
       I pulled away from school fully aware that my first stop had to be gas or I would be stranded. As I coasted into the station relief came over me, momentarily that is,  until I realized I had no wallet.
Dang it.
        I sat there wondering what to do when I remembered something. (you see where this is going)
I had my ipad, therefore I had my girlfriends credit cards. I couldn't. I shouldn't. I'm supposed to be holding them so she doesn't use them - I cant use them!
   
But I did.

       After a call confessing to her the situation she was very understanding.  If only it ended there. It gets worse.
   
      I had enough gas to get me to the gym, no point going home now. And after all ..the grocery store IS right next to the gym.

     As I skipped out of the grocery store with my new purchases and my stolen credit cards I was feeling pretty resourceful.

     Of course I nervously called the cards rightful owner and explained I would pay everything back.  She laughed and said it was fine. I was dealt with very graciously, only for some reason she took her cards back later that week.
   
    I thought about that story as I was recounting it to some mutual friends and thought about how graciously God deals with us. My girlfriend had every right to be angry, but she wasn't because she valued me more than her cards or the money they represented.
   
     How often do I put circumstances before relationships? How often does Satan convince me midst my annoyance and frustration that I am justified to feel that way.
  Are we ever justified in our frustration and annoyances? Why do we condone our behavior when irritated by someone ...the friend who is 15 minutes late to coffee or the spouse who leaves their drawers open or the man who keeps parking in two spots! Do I value my kids more than the mess they make or my spouse more than the milk he forgot to buy?

     My friend had every right to be upset and maybe if you ask her she'll say silently she was but she showed love and I'm challenging myself to love. To stop allowing myself to feel justified in these moments and value the person above it all.

       Jesus has valued me above all and I owe Him everything. Who am I to not deal with others in a similar way? Oh I will still be human and get annoyed, but now I hope to catch myself. I hope to  humbly remember the way I have been graciously dealt with by our Lord and others. I hope to choose love and relationships over situations. It seems appropriate here to remind myself once again ... that LOVE DOES.

                                       Me and my sweet friend holding her own credit cards.

And I thought it was about me..

“Prayer is not asking. Prayer is putting oneself in the hands of God, at His disposition, and listening to His voice in the depth of our hearts.”  

Mother Teresa 

I’ve always had an interesting relationship with prayer. I’ve been equal parts intrigued as well as confused by it. And while I speak to God pretty regularly throughout my day, my prayer tends to be more like shooting the breeze. 

 

"Good morning, God.”

 

"Great work on that sunset, Lord.”

 

"Give me patience and wisdom during this phone call, Lord.”

 

All great conversations, sure, but they all seemto be led by… me. They are conversations about my circumstance or the circumstances ofthose around me. Isn't something missing? I mean, I’m speaking to my Holy God - shouldn't I feel more in AWE when doing so? 

If you have read my previous blogs, you know that when I see patterns and reoccurring themes in my life, I tend to recognize them as a way of the Spirit teaching me something. And I try to remind myself to lean into them. This week, the reoccurring theme has been prayer. So u can imagine I wasnt especially surprised when I saw my husband tweet that this morning's sermon would be looking into prayer through Psalm 5. 

 

"OK, Lord I get it - teach me more about prayer. I'm listening."

So no this blog entry isn't going to give you the answers I have found because its a journey I'm still - and maybe always will be - on. However, I do have some places I think I may start.   

I read an article this week that reminded me of the Lord's Prayer. I know, I know, I had to be REMINDED of the Lords prayer??

Sadly, yes. And In my pursuit to understand more about prayer I forgot to go back to the basics. What better place to start in my journey to have a more disciplined prayer life than the very words given to us by Jesus?

Our Father, which art in heaven,

Hallowed be thy Name.

Thy Kingdom come. 

Thy will be done on Earth, 

As it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses,

As we forgive those who trespass against us. 

And lead us not into temptation, 

But deliver us from evil. 

For thine is the kingdom,

The power, and the glory,

For ever and ever.

Amen.

As I have read through the Lord's Prayer I am astonished by how outward focused it is. The words “me” and “I” are not found anywhere. The prayer instead uses “thy”, “we”, and “our”. 

Humbled. 

 

Let’s just say my practice has not always looked this way. 

My desire is to focus my prayers less on me and my circumstances and more on Him. Whatif I were to simply remove my agenda and my desires from the conversations I have with Him? I suspect I will be amazed at how my agenda and my desires will form naturally toHis agenda and His desires. 

 

I just know.

He loved us not because we are lovable, but because He is love. 

CS Lewis

      In my family the kids often ask how I KNOW things about them. When I bring them a snack, "mom how did you know I was hungry?". From the almost teenager, " Wow mom, how did you KNOW I'd love this shirt?"

My answer every time is the same. "Because I'm a mom. Because you grew inside me for 9 months I went through hours of labor and have been mostly responsible for every need you have ever had. I just know."

What's the first bible song most of us learned? Well like most of us mine was Jesus loves me. 

Jesus loves me this I Know 

For the Bible tells me so

Yes Jesus loves me 

Yes Jesus loves me.

Well I want to ask you to recognize the counter part to the reality the song points us to. 

JESUS KNOWS ME THIS I LOVE. 

A friend said that to me and I wrote it on the blackboard in my kitchen. As I walked by it day after day I tried to marinate in that thought. 

This is not a trite reality. Jesus KNOWS me? Like REALLY knows me? And still loves me more than my human understanding can comprehend? EVEN THOUGH HE REALLY knows me like no one else?

I need to be reminded of BOTH realities. 

We all have a part of us that tries to put our best foot forward in situations. We all have thoughts and doubts we may not feel free to share with others. We all have insecurities we try to hide or cover up or overcompensate for.

Jesus knows me This I love . 

Jesus loves me (anyway) this I Know. 

 

When I'm feeling angry - Jesus knows me, Jesus Loves me. 

When I'm impatient - Jesus knows me, Jesus loves me. 

When I'm overwhelmed - Jesus knows me, Jesus loves me.

When I've lost all eternal perspective - Jesus knows me, Jesus loves me. 

When I feel entitled - Jesus knows me, Jesus Loves me.

When I'm selfish - Jesus knows me, Jesus loves me. 

Jesus doesn't love us because we have Him FOOLED that we have it all together. Jesus knows us and LOVES us. We don't need to clean up and THEN He will love us. 

Psalm 139 has become a favorite of mine , ill paraphrase it here, but invite you to read it - memorize it even. 

"Oh Lord you have searched me and KNOW me. You know when I sit and rise. You know my THOUGHTS from afar, you discern what I am doing and are familiar with ALL of my ways. "

 

Wow. Jesus knows me. 

Then Romans reminds us that NOTHING can separate us from His love. No amount of wrong doing or 

failure to meet a standard. Nothing.  ( Romans 8 ) 

 

Jesus loves me. 

We can't earn His love. It's done. He loves you because He knows you. He knows you in a way that makes my knowledge of my own children seem foreign. 

What an undeserved reality I need to be reminded of often. 

So when I'm tempted to ask as my children are "Jesus how did you KNOW I needed that?" I can imagine His gentle voice saying " Because Jerushah I knit you together, because I died for you because I know you and my child I love you." 

Who wants a treat?

Because we love something else more than this world we love even this world better than those who know no other.       C.S. Lewis


 By this everyone will know you are my disciples, if you love one another.   Jesus


            My struggle as I write today is to do exactly what I'm frustrated at others for not doing. To love. To not allow myself to be frustrated by the well-meaning - but so often mistaken - believers of the world. Why the frustration? Because to me it just seems so simple. We have 33 years (3 of documented ministry) of Jesus' life on earth to read about, study, and model. So when we are faced with a choice on how to react to or treat another individual believer or not – let’s just look at what Jesus did and do that. Seem simple? I'm arguing that most of the time, it is. I heard it described the other day as opening the gospels and "reading the red".

     Over the last several years My eyes have been opened more and more to the way the world sees believers. And it's not pretty. David Kinnaman's book Unchristian quotes a non-church goer from Mississippi who states that "Christianity has become bloated with blind followers who would rather repeat slogans than actually feel true compassion and care." - Kinnaman, pg 15 It’s sad to say, but the book I refer to is chop full of examples like the one I gave - and it was published in 2009; I fear it's gotten worse.

      The above verse from John, to me says it all. Others will know we love Jesus because we love them.

        When and why did we become a people group set on telling others why we are better than they are and what they are doing wrong? Let me ask you this - when was the last time you were attracted to something because it made you feel awful or fearful or guilty? I'm pointing out that people were DRAWN to Jesus, not coerced. Allow me to repeat that in case you quickly skimmed over that line - people were drawn to Jesus, not coerced.

         I heard an unrelated illustration that I think may apply here. Recently our family got a new dog, Rue. I happen to think Rue is the most precious and adorable dog who ever lived, but she occasionally DOES like to chew on things not intended for that purpose. Shoes, in particular.
 I’ve discovered that if Rue has a shoe in her mouth and I slap her nose and try to snatch it away, she only clamps down harder on the shoe. However if I shake a bag of treats in front of her, she’s quick to drop the shoe and all but trample me for the treats!

      My desire is that we would show the world the treats we have in so that they will desire to drop their shoe! Do you realize the love we have been shown by Him? The inheritance we have been given? Do u recognize we deserve none of it?
     
       Maybe the real issue is a lack of understanding who we actually are aside from Him. I know that's where my lines get crossed. When I am tempted to judge or look down on someone, the underlying issue is me failing to recognize that - aside from the undeserved grace of Jesus - I am as ugly and sinful as any of them.

      Elyse Fitzpatrick explains this concept with an illustration I love and go back to often. If I am standing on a mountain top, and my fellow sister is standing in a coal mine, neither of us can touch the stars. Aside from His mercy and grace in our lives, none of us is any closer to the cross than anyone else at any given time.

      Perhaps the frustration I expressed earlier is better described as sadness. I'm sad that so often the Jesus who loved so well is being so misrepresented to the world. To both believers and unbelievers
alike.

 We can love well because we have been loved well. So let's draw both the fallen believer and the unsaved into repentance with our love. Let's show the world the treats we have undeservedly been given and offer to share. When we can draw others to believe, it is much more effective than slapping their noses and snatching the shoe from their mouth.

Hydrogen and Oxygen

     Pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our consciences, but shouts in our pains. It is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.”  ― C.S. Lewis   



    One of the ways I sense when the Lord is trying to teach me something is that I tend to recognize a theme. A theme in conversations or books or podcasts anything that crosses my path. I have started to recognize these as whispers from the spirit and I try to lean  into them and listen.  I have come across a lot of struggle themes lately. But with a twist.
       I have started to recognize - and maybe I'm the last one - that for the most part we all  attempt  to flee from struggle or pain  of any kind. This is after all nature - it's how we are born. Even as a baby we feel discomfort and cry until the discomfort is gone. We feel the discomforts of hunger and eat to remove it. The discomfort of heat and jump in the pool to remove it. these examples seem obvious but what about deeper discomforts?  
    What about the sadness that we have been hurt by a friend? What about the anxiety over finances? The fear of a health scare? What is our first reaction? Well personally - it's to make it stop. Go to the friend and hope for an apology - get another job to lessen the financial strain  get to the doctor as soon as possible to start FIXING me.

    Anyone who knows me knows I exercise . I love it because it makes me a better person,  a better mom and Im the rare person who LOVES to sweat. One concept I have recently accepted in yoga, (no I'm not praying to the universe or any of the other yoga misconceptions... I'm stretching sweating and hurting) is to allow myself to feel the burn of my muscles - let the pain be there, maybe even enjoy it. What if we take a new approach? What if our goal is not to FIX it ... At least right away. What if we switch our mindset and allow ourselves to lean into the struggle so as not to miss the purpose of it in our lives.   
        I was sitting on the beach a few weeks ago with a dear friend who first introduced this concept to me . We were discussing the discouragement a mutual friend was feeling in her life and the "fixer" in me wanted to help. My motives were pure and out of love but my wise friend suggested " why don't we let her lean into it... Allow her to work through it in her own time lets not rob her of the lesson here by removing her from the struggle quite yet". wow. Why was this such a novel idea to me? Don't run from the pain and struggle?
      I read an article this week ( again. .. I'm telling you the spirit is laying this theme everywhere lately ... Kind of nervous ) where the author describes pain and happiness as a combo deal. He says you can not drink water and ask for only the hydrogen skipping the oxygen ... Or only the oxygen and pass on the hydrogen. No they are a combo deal . Maybe the same goes with life here on earth . Pain and happiness are a combo deal. In order to relish in one you need to lean into the other .
     I'm so glad our sweet Lord didn't run from the pain. Was it a temptation? Even for Him? Yes it was but He took the pain of the WORLD on His shoulders leaned into it and WE came out forever changed by HIS pain.   
     Our sweet Jesus has Lesson for us in the pain. The amazing thing is we have hope. Hope  that not only will HE walk through our pain and struggle with us but hope that we will not emerge from the pain unchanged by Him if we allow it.  And I'd venture to say we then will experience the freedom and joy HE offers us even deeper than before.